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N¼nNp«³.sWäv …Np_¨p Sp\nt]ms¡s] D*m]n^p¶pÅqko«o¶pw FXp¡mWv ..ASo¶p Wà Sp\ns]ms¡ G«¯ns]Xp¯p …bns¶ Np_¨p bm{S§av D*v ..ASm]n«p F¶m¯nWm FXp¡ps¶ ..””

bns¶ fmSyp AktamsXm¶pw tImUn¨nà … Akav fn*n]pfnà ..kosX¯pw ks^ N®X¨n^n¸m]n^p¶p

“” At¿m … CsS´p tNm`fm hmt_ …. H^p b\n¡m^¯n CÃm]n^pt¶m …”” fpäw fpjpk`v bÅ Wn_ªSv N*p Df Nm_n`v Wn¶n_§n Ipäpw tWm¡n ..

“” FÃmw b_]mw … Wo ANt¯¡v N]_q …”” fmSyp Aksa ANt¯¡v N]än]n«v Nm^v ko*pw Ìm^v«v sI]vSp .

“” hms_t§m«m?’

“” WnW¡v fmän]pXp¡mWv kÃSpw tkt* … At¿m …. Aakv b_ ….””

Df]psX fpOs¯m^p Wm\w fn¶nf_ªp ..

“” 90 bmân ….34 {dm “”

“” 90 bmânt]m ? ^t*m fqt¶m tbms^ … fp¸¯nWm`v {dm]pw tkt\m ?’ A]mav AkapsX fp`]ns`¡v tWm¡n]t¸mav Df In^n¨p .

‘ tbm]n km§o«p km BlmsW b©m^ AXn¡msS …”” sb«¶kav In^b^nISsW tbms`t]m , Asæn`v H^p NmfpNsW tbms`t]m St¶mXv hwhm^n¨t¸mav fmSyp A´w kn«p. A]mav Aksa tWm¡n Wm¡v Wo«n¡m\n¨n«v k*ns]Xp¯p .

hf]w fq¶^t]maw B]n^p¶p At¸mav … sXu\nt`¡v tbm] fmSyp Sn^nsN k¶Sv B_^ B]t¸mjm\v .

k*n fpät¯¡v NX¶sS k^m´]n`v N¯n¨p sk¨ Wn`kna¡nWp, fp¶n`n`v C^n¡p¶ Dfs] B\v N*Sv … Wn`kna¡nWmt\m AtSm Akav¡mt\m NqXpS`v {bNmlsf¶p A]mav htµin¨p …

A]mav AN¯p N]_n Npan¨p s{Zhv fm_n]t¸mtj¡pw Aksa¯n .

‘ knl¡p¶pt*m AtSm ? ‘ Akav km]nt`¡v SÅ kn^`v sNm*mPyw Nm\n¨p skÅw AXn]mt\m F¶v tImUn¨p .

‘ Du\v Njn¡mw Wo]pw sskNpt¶^w H¶pw Njn¨nÃtÃm … I¸m¯n]pw docpw km§n]n«p*v …Wo docv Njn¡ptfm ?’

‘ tW^s¯ Njn¡nÃm]n^p¶p….Cs¸m Sn^n¨p NXn¡¯sS´pw Njn¡pw “” Df kmSn`n`v Im^n Wn¶p In^n¨p .

As¶m^p Unkhftà SmWv AkapsX NqsX D*m]n^p¶pÅq …F¶n«pw Akav St¶msX´v AXp¸fm\v Nm\n¡p¶Sv …

fmSyp fWhn`v Hm^v¯p sNm*v skan]nt`¡v WX¶p . tcm\v Im^vKv sI¿mWn«v ssN NjpNn ssZWnwPv tXdnanWp fp¶n`n^p¶t¸mtj¡pw Df sbmSn Ajn¨p t¹änt`¡v I¸m¯n]pw docpw kna¼n]n^p¶p ..

“” IqXv Nªn ]p*v ,..ASv NqXn Njn¡t\ …. tfm^v Nq«mWpw D*v’ AXpt¯¡v IqXv Nªn]pÅ tNm¸ NqXn FXp¯psk¨n«kav sg`vcn`v Wn¶pw N¼nNp«³.sWäv