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N¼nNp«³.sWäv fnWn]psf§Wm\v H^msa Ss¶ dp²nfp«n¡p¶Sv .
bm`v shmsshän]n`v sNmXp¯n«v knlzWmTWpÅ hmVW§av Hs¡ km§n , kjn]^nNns` sb«n¡X]n`v Wn¶v H^p thmZm h^vd¯v km§n ¡pXn¡p t¼mjm\v sb«n¡X]n`v hnP^äv bpN¨p sNm*v Wn`v¡p¶ ^*p tb^psX hwhm^w tN«Sv …
‘tKm\vhm, Wo CWow hnP^äv k`n¨m F§Wm ? Wnsâ Nm^yw Wo Hm^v¡\w … “”
‘Wn^v¯t\m¶p*v Aan]m … sI_p¸¯ns` SpX§n] lo`ftà …sb«¶v Wn^v¯mWv bäptfm? F¶`pfnt¸mavNp_km Aktaw bntÅt^w Hm^v¡pt¼m k`n Wn^v¯mWv tSm¶pw ..F¶m bäp¶pfnà .””
‘H^p kr¡]pw sk¨v ..ASpw tZmNX^v bq^v\mt^mPy¯n`Ãms]¶tà b_sª …CWn ASpw NqXn tNXm]m`v Akapw bntÅ^pw SWnt¨ DÅq … ASpw b_¡fpäm¯ bntÅ^pw “”
bns¶ … hpemgnWv NnZvWn]psX dm¡n ssbh Ct¸mjpw sNmXp¡mWv NnX¸p*v … ‘
‘ Òvfw .. Cs¶m^p C^pbSnWm]n^w ^qb sNmXp¡\w …AkWm dm_n`v Nm\pw Aan]Wv km “” A]mav hnP^äv Npän Smsj]n«p Ikn«n]^¨n«p WX¶N¶t¸mav fin ¥mhv Sn^nsN sk¨n«v Ak^psX bp_sN WX¶p .
hwek§saSpfnÃmsS H^mjvI bn¶n«p…
‘ fins]«m …ssbh kÃSpfmt]m ?””
sskNn«v k¶p N]_n] fin¡vIqXv Nªn kna¼n , ssS^n`v fp¡n]p\¡n. k_p¯ fpaNpw tk¸n` I½´n]pw Ip« b¸Xkpw FXp¯v sk¨v AkW^nNn`n^p¶p Df .

‘ H¶pfm]nà ..bs£ Fsâ H^p I§mSn f{Umhn`p*v ….. AksW knan¨t¸m At§m«v sIÃmWv b_ªp … fmN-vhnfw tWm¡msf¶v ….. Wmsa Ss¶ tbmt]¡mw ..Wo ^*p g^v«pw fp*psfXp¯v skt¨s^ …Wmsa b\n Njnªv sskNn«s¯ t`m¡`n`v N]_mw “”
‘ F¶v k^pw fins]«m ? MmWpw At½w CknsX SWns] …””
“” gp¡q_ntWmXv b_ªn«p*v … Ft´`pw hmVW§av tkt\`v AkWv km§n S^pw … N¿n`pÅ ssbh MmWv S¶n«v tbmNmw …. fq¶m`v Unkh¯nWpÅn`v MmWv k^pw … Ft´`pw Bklyw k¶m`v gp¡q_ntWmXv b_ Fs¶ knan¡mWv ..””
fin¡v tcm\p*v . Df]psX N¿n`v tcm\nà … bj]Sv Hs^®w D*m]n^p¶p ASv tNXm]SnWm`v W¶m¡mWv sNmXp¯n«v km§mWv bän]nà ..
fin bntä¶v fmSyp hm_ntWmXpw b_ªn«v sIss¶¡v Sn^n¨p . H^p {c*nsW Nm\mWv F¶v fm{Sfm\v AkWv hm_ntWmXv b_ªSv .
Nm`¯v Fjpt¶äp bm`v fn`v¡v Np¡_n`v sk¨v fmSyp hm^v koXnsâ bp_Nns` fp_n]nt`¡v WX¶p .
ASn^mkns` Fjpt¶`v¡p¶ lo`fm\v fmSyp hm_nsâSv. b«ma¯n`v B]n ^p¶SvsNm*pÅ In« . D_¨ l^o^fm\v A]maptXSv. Wm`^ f\n¡v Fjpt¶äv H^p f\n¡q^v kym]mfw . N¼nNp«³.sWäv