ഹൃദയത്തിന്‍റെ ഡയറിക്കുറിപ്പ്‌ [മന്ദന്‍ രാജാ] 436

N¼nNp«³.sWäv kas^ Ip^p¡w ..ASpw fn¡Spw Fs´¦n`pw Nm^\w sNm*v fpX§pw … F¶m`pw FWn¡ksa KokWm]n^p¶p … ASnWp bN^fkav hvtWiw sNm*v ko^v¸pfp«n¨p . “”

‘ F¶m bns¶ hm_nsWm^p knkmiw NqsX …””

“” tk* …. Cu {bm]¯n`v Nn«p¶Sv AsS tbms` {bm^mÏS DÅSm]n^n¡pw .l^o^¯nWv k¶m`v hin¡mw fWhnWpw hzemk¯n`pw sb^pfmä¯n`pfpÅtSm? Fsâ f¡sa Ak^v¡nãs¸Xptfm ? CknsX]nsæn`pw … FWn¡v tbm`pw Cãs¸Xp¶nÃs]¦n`pw Aks^]mt^`pw Npäw b_]pt¼mav AsSWn¡v Sm§mWv bäptfm ? “”

H^n_¡v NpXn¨SnWp tlgw fmSyp SpX^v¶v .

“” hSyw b_ªm`v Wo Ft¶mXn§sWs]m¶pw hwhm^n¡m_nÃm]n^p¶p …ASnsâ Ian¸v NqsX]p*v … Asæn`v H^p bs£ Wnsâ NqsX
A¶v MmWpw sIss¶¡v kt¶sW …. Wo b_ª tNmX¼m¡t¯¡v Aà tNt«m …AÃms]¶pw b_]mWv bänà … Ba_n]msS fWh_nªp H¶v km]n tWm¡mtÃm …. H^p Npavcn km§n Du¼ns¡m*v do¨n`v NqXn WX¡mtÃm ..CknsXs]m¶pw WX¡nà … HXp¡s¯ S_km«p tdmVw …sb®v sN«n]t¸mav Bs\Xm MmWo Wm«nt`¡v k¶Sv … KWn¨Spw ka^v¶Spw Hs¡ A½]psX Wm«n`m .. bSnW©p k]hnWp fpWvbpÅ Nq«pNm^pw kn^`n`v F®mkp¶ks^ D*m]n^p¶pÅq … _n«]^v B]n k¶p NjnªknsX sIs¶m¶p Sn^¡n tWm¡n]t¸mtj¡pw b`^pw b` kjn]n`m]n^p¶p …. hSy¯n`v Wo k¶Sn`v bns¶]m MmWv H^p fWpgyWv B]Sv … Np«n¡m`w Hs¡ Sn^n¨p Nn«n]Sv tbms` …Ct¸mav FWn¡pw D*v B{Piw … H^p ^m{Sns]¦n`v H^p ^m{Sn H^p Wà sb®nsâ NqsX In`kjn¡\sf¶v … Cs¸m FWns¡m^p Wà {c*v D*tÃm …Wo … ‘

“” hm_v ho^n]hm]n b_]p¶Smt\m ?””

“” F´v ?’

“” H^p sb®nsW tk\sf¶v .. tPav {c*v ?’

“” Òw .. FWn¡pfp*v Bl … Ctà … KmWNn]pw Wo]pw NqXn Hs¡ Fsâ tN«v tbm] knNm^s¯]pw DuSns¸^p¸n¨p .””

“” MmWv tWm¡s« hmt_ …””

“” Wo Cu kjns¡m¶pw tbm]n«nö_n]mw ..sk_psS tb^ptUmgsfm¶pw k^p¯n sks¨¡^pSv””

“” ASà hmt_ …. Njnª Unkhw H^p¯Wv H^p Nm^yw b_ªn^p¶p … AkWv NqXn]m`v NqXp¶nöp “”

“” F´v ?’

“” Aksâ b^nI]¯n`pÅ H^p sb®m\v … bnj¨ sbs®m¶pfÃm¶m b_sª … C¸w Akavs¡t´m ASymklyw D*t{S … bs£ fq¶p `£w ^qb]m tImUn¡ps¶¶p””

‘ fq¶p `£w ^qbt]m ? kà hnWnf WXnfmt^m Bt\mXm ?’

“” ti]v ..F´m hnWnfm WXnfms^ Bt\m hm_nWp N¼nNp«³.sWäv