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N¼nNp«³.sWäv Akav DXp¯n^n¡p¶Sv ..Bkly¯nWpÅ sbm¡kpw k®kpw … Umk\n]psX CX]n`qsX sshZns` k]^v Nm\mw .. Aksam¶p Sn^nªn^pt¶`v fpOsfm¶p Nm\mfm]n^p¶p ..tfl]n`v Im^n , F¯n k`nªp fpNans` sg`vcnt`¡v bj]b{S§av FXp¯p sk¡mWv sb^pkn^`n`v Du¶n]p]^v¶t¸mav AkapsX ko\¡pXw tbms`]pÅ Np*nNav N*]apsX Np® hXNpXsªjptWäp.. Nm`n`v sI^n¸nà ,H^p bmUh^w tbm`pfnsæn`pw AkapsX hz^\Wn_fm^v¶ Nm`vbmU§av Xyqdv ss`änsâ skan¨¯n`v ftWmi^fm]n^p¶p .

“” tks_s´¦n`pw tkt\m hm^v ?’ sb«¶kav tImUn¨t¸mav B\v fmSyp AkapsX AjNakpNapsX In´]n`v Wn¶p\^v¶Sv

“” tk …tk..*m ..””

“” Du\nt¸mav FXp¡t\m ?’

“” tk* ..””

Akav ko*pw hwhm^n¨t¸mav fmSyp A`vbw ssV^y¯n`m]n. A]makapsX fpOt¯¡v tWm¡n .. k«fpOw … sWän]n`v IµW¡p_n .Wo*p knX^v¶ N®pNan`v N×gn km`ns«jpSn]n^n¡p¶p.. SpXp¯ Ip*pNav¡v `nbvhv_nNv CÃmsS Ss¶ tIm^¨pk¸v.. tbXn]m`v Bt\m F¶_n]nÃ, sWän]n`v Wn¶pw kn]^v¸p¯pÅnNav HjpNn Smsj¡n_§n Wo* Njp¯n`qsX fm_nX¯ns`¡v F¯n fm]p¶p .. HSp§n] CXp¸nWp fpNan`v hfr²fm] fm_nXw , A^s¡«pw knX^v¶Sm\v. fmSyp tWm¡p¶Sv N*mkpw Akav fpOw Smtj¡v NpWn¨p . F¶n«v sb«¶v Ss¶ A]msa tWm¡n bp©n^n¨p.

“” F´m ….F´m tfmapsX …. Np«osX tb^v ? “”

“” Df …Aà ftilz^n “” sb«¶kav Sn^p¯n]Spw fmSyp Aksas]m¶p hwl]¯m`v tWm¡n ..

Ckav B^m\v … Rm ..tb^n`v F´n^n¡p¶p …

“” Df F¶v Ss¶]m\v hm^v tb^v Dfm ftilz^n ..Fs´¦n`pw Npj¸w D*mNpsf¶v N^pSn fmän b_ªSm\v”” fmSyp Aksa tWm¡n …A]mapsX tWm«s¯ tW^nXmWmkm¯ tbms` Akav ko*pw fpOw NpWn¨p . fmSyp AXp¯ sb¤pw Hä k`n¡v NpXn¨p .. bp_¯v fj]psX ip¦m^lÐw SpX§n]n^p¶p … bp_¯v sshZns` k^m´]n`v tbm]n fj N*psNm*v ^s*®w AXnIn^n¡mWv A]mav¡nãfm\v …F¶m`pw Cu sb®pÅt¸mav AkntX¡v tbm]n^n¡mWv fmSyp fXn¨p … B^v¡pw sb«¶v tWm«w F¯m¯ Ø`fms\¦n`pw Njnª Unkhws¯ tbms` KmWNn F§mWpw NX¶p k^ptfms]¶ In´]pw A]msa bp_tNm«p k`n¨p . fqNfm]n Cjªp Wo§pN]m\v hf]w . At¸mav B\v In´]nt`¡v KmWNn]pw sN«n]kWpw NqXn ^*mfs¯ Sk\s¯ f^p¶v Njn¡mWv tbmNpN]ms\¶v Nk`]n`v sk¨v b_ªSpw , ^mkns` k^nà ASnWp bN^w CX¡v Ak^nÃm¯t¸mav k¶p him]n¡m_pÅ Bsa G^vs¸Xp¯n]n«ps*¶pw b_ªSv Hm^vf k¶Sv …. N¼nNp«³.sWäv