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N¼nNp«³.sWäv tkUW]n`pw H¶pw fn*n]nà ..AXp¯ AXn {bSo£nIn^p¶t¸mtj¡pw A]mav AkapsX Np*n k`n¨Nän BhW¯ns`¡v Np® fp«n¨p ..

“” tWm ..¹ohv … ¹ohv fmNv “” ASv Ssâ AhW¯ns`¡v N]_n]m`v SmWv I¯ptbmNpsf¶v Akav¡v tSm¶n ..A]maSv kN sk¡msS Akant`¡v Imªp

‘ As½ ..tk*m fmNv ..”” tkUW]n`v Akav Cw¥ogv Hs¡ f_¶n^p¶p ..”” g«v Abv ]ioo_y ]lt^k …’ fNpXw tN_n]t¸mav hvs_Ã kmkn«p N^ªp ..

At¸mtj¡pw ko*pw tcm\v sdÃXn¨p .. A]mav ssN Wo«n Nmav AäWvZv sI]vSp hvbo¡_n`v C«p … B sb®v Ss¶ B]n^p¶p ASv .. ko*pw tUgy¯n`v hwhm^w .. fmNv H¶v NqXn N]än]t¸mav hvs_à ko*pw N^ªp ..A]mav AkapsX km]v sbm¯n bnXn¨p , A`vbw NqXn NpWnªp Np® bqänt`¡v N]än]t¸mav hvs_à Hs«m¶p Blzhn¨p ..AkapsX bp_¯qsX Imªp NnX¶p A]mav H^p bnhv_vWv tbms` Np® N]än]n_¡n …A`vbtW^w NqXn Njnªt¸mav A]mav AkapsX bqän`v Wn¶v Np® k`n¨q^n ..hvs_à Wnk^v¶t¸mav A]maksa Ssâ Nm`nsâ AXn]nt`¡v Smjv¯n ..F¶n«m Np® AkapsX km]nt`¡v SÅn N]än .. hvs_à sk_pt¸msX F¦n`pfm Np® km]ns`s¡Xp¯p … tdmapNan`v H¶v sM^Xn]p_p©n k`n¨tSmsX AkapsX km]nt`¡v AkWv bmt`mjp¡n .. Akav C_¡p¶Sm]n Nm\n¨p km] AX¨p bnXn¨p … Asæn`]mav d`fm]n NpXn¸n¡ptfms]¶p Akav¡v tSm¶n]n^p¶p …bs£ fmNv Aksa {l²n¡msS sb«¶v s{Zhv sI¿mWv SpX§n]t¸mav hvs_à s{cgmNmWv F¶ tbms` dm{Sqfns`¡v WX¶p …

Akav Sn^n¨p k^pt¼mav A]maknsX CÃm]n^p¶p … H¸n« c]`nWv fpNan`v H^p sI¡v `ocv Akav N*p …F{Ss]¶p tbm`pw tWm¡msS hvs_à ASv dmPnt`¡v Sn^pNn , s{Zhv sI¿mWv SpX§n .. bmâohnsâ kÅn fm{Sfp*v .. {dm]pw N\¡m\v … tUiw fpjpkWv Wp_p§p¶ tkUW .. A]mav A{S boZn¸n¨nsæn`pw A]mapsX ssN¡^p¯n`v NnX¶p bnX]pNm]n^p¶p AkapsX l^o^w {dm]pw bmân]pw AknsX Dtb£n¨kav sPu\v FXp¯p sWXpsN No_n]n^n¡p¶p ..A^¡v tft`¡v ssXäv B]Sp sNm*v ^*p ssN sNm*pw k`n¨p bnXn¨mt` l^o^w f_]q ..At¸mav Smsj klw Sp_¶p NnX¡pw ..

hvs_à fp_n]n`msN S¸ns]¦n`pw bq«n]n^n¡p¶SnWm`v _m\n]psXt]m H¶pw s{Zhv N*nà ..Akav tcms\Xp¯p tKmKns] knan¨p ..sdÃXn¡p¶p*v, FXp¡p¶nà .._m\ns] knan¨n«pw SssTk…AXn]pw fpNapw ssNNav sNm*v DXp¸v k`n¨p bnXn¨kav bp_¯n_§n ..FSns^]pÅ fp_n]n`v H^p lÐw tN«kav At§m«v Wo§n … Nm`pNav tk¨p tbmNp¶p*v Akav¡v N¼nNp«³.sWäv