ഹൃദയത്തിന്‍റെ ഡയറിക്കുറിപ്പ്‌ [മന്ദന്‍ രാജാ] 436

N¼nNp«³.sWäv …Akav kmSn`nWXpt¯¡v k¶t¸mav kmSn`v Sp_¶p hv_ocWv bp_t¯¡v k¶p , _m\n]psX ihvdWvZv …A]maksa AXnfpXns]m¶p tWm¡n skap¡sW In^n¨p ..

“” WtÃm\w Du¡n]tÃmXn fmNv Wns¶ …”” hvs_à H¶p fn*n]nà .. bN^fkapsX N®pNav Wn_ªp …
ÌocWtSmsX kÃmSm]n …

“” tbms«sNms¨ … MmWv sk_psS b_ªSm …. NjpS Nmfw N^ªp So^v¡psf¶v b_]¯ntà ..ASm …””

‘ A¨m]m s{Zhv kÃSpw ?””

“” Wo km _m\osX Nm\pw …””

hv_ocWv Aksa ANt¯¡v Nq«ns¡m*v tbm]n .

“”Wo tWm¡v ..CSkapsX sdZv _qfm ..MmWnt§m«v N]_n]n«v fmh§am]n … ASymklyw f_]p¶Sv kÃSpw N*m`v fSn]m^p¶p …””

hvs_Ã km^vt{Zmdn`v s{ZÊpNav S¸mWv SpX§n ..

“” tfmsa … Fsâ H^p NãNm`¯nWp At¶^s¯ bnXnkÅn tbms` MmWv _m\ns] C§sWm^p hntäzgWn`v sbXp¯n]Sm … A¶s¯ hv_ocWv C¶s¯ tKmKn]m … bäpsf¦n`v CSv sNm*v Wn^v¯\w Wo ..tk*m CWn tk*ms]¶p MmWmN¶p b_ªSm ….. Akav ^pIn bnXn¨p tbm]Smt\m Ft´m ..FWn¡nt¸m H^p b«osX kn` sbm`pfnÃnknsX … sbm¡n Nm\n¡mWv H^p e^v¯mkv ….ASm MmWv Wnt¶mX§sW b_ªSv … Wnsâ N®v Wn_ªSv MmWv N*p ..A¶v _m\n]psX N®pNav Wn_ªn«nà …..As¶¶Ã, bns¶ ..H^n¡`pw …WnW¡v tk*m¶p sk¡mw …ASnWpÅ fWhp WnW¡p*v …””

“” MmWv tk*m¶p sk¨m`pw tKmKn tk*m¶p sk¡psf¶v A¨m]Wv tSm¶p¶pt*m … tKmKn¡v b\fm\v Cs¸m k`pSv …. Fsâ kngfkpw h¦Xkpw sNm*v tKmKns] MmWv tbXn¸n¨p Wn^v¯p¶Sm … MmWnWn CÃ A¨m]m H¶nWpw ..fSn]m]n …”” hvs_Ã H^p dWn]Wpw KoWvhpw FXp¯n«v sPu\v Du^n fmän KoWvhv k`n¨p N]än . NpWnªp Wn¶v Akav s{Zhv C«t¸mav kn^nª Np*n]pw ASns` Ipk¶ ssN¸XpNapw N*p hv_ocWv AkapsX tWs^ Wo§n …A]mav AkapsX tSman`v ssN sk¨p …hvs_Ã A]mav¡v tWs^ Sn^nªp .

“” FWn¡n¶v k¿ A¨m]m …bns¶s]m^n¡`v Bkmw …””

“” Fsâ tfmsa ..tk*m … Wnsâ AknXknsX Ipk¶ bmXpNav ..Wns¶]kmWv sl^n¡v Db{Ukn¨p Asà … C¶v D¨ fpS`v Aksâ _qfn`m]n^p¶p _m\n ..F¶n«pw Akav Nqhs`tWy Asà WX¡p¶Sv …. H^p sb®nsW A_nªn«p MmWv fmh§am]n … ANs¯ Af^vgkpw h¦Xkpw B\v fpt¶ Wnt¶mXv A§sW b_ªSv .. thm_n .. Wo sbmt¡m ..MmWv tKmKns] H¶v S¸s« …””

“” A¨m]m H^p fnWp«v …”” hvs_Ã dmPv Sp_¶p fmNv sNmXp¯ sI¡v `ocv N¼nNp«³.sWäv